There’s a lot of supposed to be happening in this season of life.
Today’s supposed to be feels really achy.
Four times this past year we’ve been grounded by the US Embassy, as I’ve discussed previously, because of Civil and Political unrest in our beloved Haiti.
But today, today we’re grounded because of the current state of our world, not just theirs, and it feels really messy.
I am not questioning God’s Sovereignty in this but you can believe that I am asking Him questions. The pages of my journal from these past fourteen months of grounding are filled with questions, no answers, and tear stained pages begging for Him to move amongst us in a way that we hadn’t even imagined before. “…and maybe You are,” I write, “so if You are, will You open my eyes bigger to see it.. because I’m having a hard time right now.”
The privilege of my situation is not lost on me, but my heart was not made ONLY for American soil and I know that to be sixteen billion percent true.
There are little faces and big mountains and noises and smells that I am just waiting to see…and so today, instead of landing on Haitian soil, I will actively choose to trust the God of whatever is supposed to be.
